Daianu

No, no, no, brother. The forum you're looking for is the JW Closed Club, not this one. This forum is controlled mainly by disfellowshipped and apostates. Ask to be accepted there. If not, the best one is JWtalks. A far better community. I personally enrolled here to research apostasy. There is a site called, Jehovahs-Witness.com. Never go there. The nastiest, ex-witnesses control that site. There is this one former Jehovah's witness that decided to come out of the closet as gay. He faded away. That guy is so angry with his mother for a reason she doesn't understand since she wasn't shunning him. The hilarious part, he started shunning her. Now that he married his gay lover, he wants nothing to do with his life giver. He hates her with a passion. She still doesn't understand. Like I said, she never rejected him. But that's the mentality of some former members. So, definitely stay away from that site. Have peace, my brother. Look for better sites. Take care, agape!