Look I had to make new account so I could reply to you. Somebody really hates me on this forum... hahaha
I will try to improve my self, and thank you for your suggestions.
Look I am like Peter the apostle ... am a very passionate person... and above all I hate hypocrites in and out the organization.
I do not attend to my congregation anymore because elders (one of them told me secretly) have orders from the overseer to call me to a meeting and to try to find a reason to disfellowship me. The problem for them is I am very careful so far and I only make questions. But I know that in a closed room... without witnesses .... anything bad can happen to me. I really have hope that is not too late for the organization to change and be saved.... my words , even in this forum , annoying some people ... which people will not have to be annoyed if they really had the truth ... because the truth have nothing to be afraid of.
Even my question are now baptized as posts and brought up here in the "Parking Lot for Controversial Posts".
My knowledge about the customs of the east comes from my family. I have blood from the east, The tables in the time of Jesus would have been round, not very big in size, and all the apostles would have been gathered around this table. If Jesus took bread dipped it and gave it to Judas, that doesn't mean that He put it to him mouth, Judas probably took it and ate it from Jesus's hand. The distances for a dozen of people are no so great. I still believe that the bread was an ordinary bread on this occasion. And I think the memorial is for all his followers, not just for some elite. Just don't eat it if you don't deserve it !
we don't have the scriptural proof that the bread and the wine are only for the anointed. but I will continue to learn and I am open. I am no bitter person with hatred and all that ....
wish : may you enjoy being a disciple of Jesus !